Is this wat I am gonna be left with????
Memories filled with pain and my heart so weak….
Sadly, I close my eyes and think about the incessant journey…
Where had it all Begun?? Where did I start and wat was my dream?
As every little boy used to dream in his fantasy world, So did I….
But It was too late before I could realise that this is not my fantasy world…
At first it seemed as if I dint work and failure struck me hard…
But Then I started working hard and yet flunked as I committed mistakes…
Everyone is bound to make mistakes. there is no harm in it unless you fail to correct them.I too started correcting mistakes and worked really hard but still coudnt make it..When I analysed I gave an excuse That I was inexperienced…It was too late before I could gain experience by missing out on opportunities till then.. but at one point of time, I was tired of losing and my confidence was drowning.. That was the time I really wanted to reach the top… I was desperate to win.. Opportunity dint just knock my door but it invited me to rise to the occasion… I gave my best shot but Still failed… Wat was the reason??? Was it my Ill luck???
There were no answers and no excuses as I was shattered with disbelief….
I dint seize THAT particular moment.. Eveytime I fell just short of that thin victory line…
Why is that I Go so close to winning but let my chance just slip away at the final instant?
I decided to quit out of shame . I asked myself…. Where Am I gonna go???
Am I gonna escape from the Daunting past?? Definitely No…..
I decided to go on…. What was the reason?? Because I had no other option…
I started off yet again but I was steadfast and calm this time…
I was told not to expect much and just keep going…
I knew my performance had gone down with time, Yet I believed something was in store for me. Consolations was what I got and it made me little happy as I realised my efforts dint go in vain… These feelings were only momentory but I believed it mooted my confidence..
I had grown along with my confidence to witness the BIGGEST opportunities of my life right in front of my eyes. I had already learnt various things through my experiences.. I was accompanied with those magnificent ppl who motivated me to perform my best..
Inspite of every single positive aspect I failed yet again just like the old times… It was followed by a series of consequitive blows which made me starve for confidence…
Ppl have their distinct ways of commenting about my failures …..
And there were these ppl who had sailed to the victory line with sheer luck
but misunderstood that it was just because of their brilliance that they could manage to end up being successsful even without having to work much…
These ppl looked down upon me with sheer grief and patted on my back…
They Adviced …”U could have done much better.. Work harder from now on!!”
I was torn apart… I sat down and smiled to reassure that I am not gonna give up.. Perseverance was the golden word…. I have to keep reminding myself those moments… Thanks to those painful incidents which had moulded my attitude to perfection…
Now I Realised that life was a wild wild Race with the stakes that sure are immeasurable… There is no meaning in this journey until the Destiny is reached… And After traversing this long, It would mean worthless to settle down for a normal goal…
As I have seen ppl who had fought hard to reach the zenith of excellence ….
I became more desirous and passionate to win the WAR……
The Astounding fact that suprises me is that OPPORTUNITIES are flooded around… I donot regret to have missed out the greatest opportunities in the past. The reason being that It had inculcated in me the ability to dream BIG..
I might be burnt from within if I never reach my final destination
but I surely feel that THE CHALLENGE is prodigious!!!!!!!!!!!!!
